I was reading about Pope Benedict the XVI's decision to live out the rest of his days at the Vatican now that he's stepping down from his position. People have noted that this decision will allow him to continue to avoid any legal repercussions associated with the sexual assault of children by Catholic clergy. In their justifiable bitterness and anger, I've seen comments where people wished that he would just die a horrible death, maybe even crucified. Then I saw a comment that said that dying would be too good for him.
I looked at the comment for a while and tried to figure out why I feel this way, too. I think it's because I think it's easy to die for your God. What's really difficult, is living...and I say that as someone who has spent over two decades of extreme sickness thanks to two progressive, incurable diseases and having dealt with a diagnosis of terminal illness (my bone cancer).
Dying is easy, a piece of cake, any fool can do it. It can be nasty and unpleasant, but it's usually brief and not too messy for the family to deal with. When you're dying, you'll get more kindness (from the folks who love you) than you know what to do with.
However, when you don't die, you have to face responsibility and accountability and an uncertain future. That, my friends, is what's difficult. This pope doesn't deserve the sweet dénouement of dying surrounded by friends and family doing what they can to ease you through the process. No, he deserves to live to be a thousand years and every day re-live the horrors that his actions caused.